For a long time, I joked that I didn't know meaning of the word 'weekend'. But there was nothing funny about the seemingly endless hours of work to which I subjected myself. Awake at 5 am. Immediately at the computer. There 'til 8 pm with few breaks. 7 days a week. I'm ashamed to admit I felt a sick sense of pride rattling off those figures. But truthfully, I wasn't excelling at any of my endeavors, I wasn't helping anyone to the best of my abilities, and I was definitely hurting myself.
Here's the deal. I'm extremely uncomfortable with unstructured time. The thought of sitting around with a cup of coffee and no particular place to go? Makes. My. Skin. Crawl. On the rare occasions when I would step away from my laptop, I'd take an exercise class, cook a quick meal, tick items off my to-do list. I thought I was creating space for relaxation. Retrospectively I was filling it right back up again, rather than letting serendipity seep in—or heaven forbid, allowing it to remain empty.
So lately I've been practicing weekends, with practice being the operative concept. It's a 'try, try again' situation. Sometimes I will have to work on a Saturday, and yes, I'm writing this blog post on a Sunday. But last weekend I lounged in a sun puddle all morning with a girlfriend. Our aimless chat about boys and art and life evolved into an impromptu iPhone portraiture lesson. Not knowing what could happen (or not happen) when I stay still is quietly exhilarating. I've found that comfy clothes, simple household goods, healthy foods, and great friends ease me through my aimless weekend, but that's me. I'll bet you have your own tricks of the trade. If you don't, maybe we can wander the skin-crawly discomfort together? After all, we have a lifetime of weekends ahead of us. Let's start practicing now!
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